Blog, Breast cancer, Cancer, Christmas

It’s nearly…

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For me it’s always been about giving to others.

My wish for you in the New Year is a brighter outlook. I especially am looking forward to 2021.

I was diagnosed with breast cancer this year and have just finished all the treatment; it’s not been an easy time to live through.

I want to take a moment to think about the women and men who have just found out they have cancer. 

How must they be feeling?

You might know someone who has had cancer or just been diagnosed. They could be your partner, husband, wife, mother, father, sister or brother. 

I had some amazing support from breast cancer now nurses during my treatment; they really did help me a lot to get through it.

You can help those in the future with a cancer diagnosis by giving what you can today to breast care now, from this link

Alternatively Macmillan Cancer Support helps people who are diagnosed with a variety of other types of cancers.

It’s not until you have a cancer diagnosis that you really understand what other people have to go through; so please help if you can.

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This month is #BreastCancerAwarenessMonth

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I want to thank all the breast nurses and staff who work at QEII Hospital in WGC and the Breast Cancer Now nurses and volunteers who have helped me while I’ve been having treatment recently. They are really amazing people. If you would like to make a donation to help others with breast cancer please follow the link below.

I know of so many people who have been affected not only by breast cancer but by cancer of all types. It could be your husband, wife, father, mother, sister or brother.

In my own family since getting my diagnosis I’ve learned of many relatives who have had cancer and of their treatment and in some cases their death.

I’ve experienced others going through treatment for cancer; it doesn’t make it any easier to cope with when you get a diagnosis yourself.

I think at the moment we are all so caught up living with Covid-19, this has taken our minds off other things but it really is important to get any unusual illnesses checked out.

It really could save your life….

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Waiting with #breast cancer

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Anyone who’s experienced cancer treatment, or is going through treatment at the moment will identify with the endless appointments and time spent waiting. It’s a lonely time, particularly with coronavirus.

I’m Waiting…

Waisting time


My life ticks


No book 📖 

No phone 📞 

No newspaper 📰 

To settle into

As coronavirus reigns

Boredom remains

🌷🌸 🌷🌸🌷

One hour

Or three


I’m feeling lucky


Two hours…

My legs feel dead

I’ve been sat so long

I’m past caring

The outcome,



I’m surrounded by


Flowery pictures;

🌷 🌷 

I feel smothered

In this moment 

My name is called

Reality beckons me now

I have breast cancer 

Why is it


and flowery?

🌷 🌷 

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#Breast cancer? Why me?

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Its only unhealthy people who get sick?  Isn’t it?

I walk regularly, exercise and eat a healthy diet, surely not?

As I’ve recently found out, anyone can have cells in the body that become cancerous. 

Cancer doesn’t only pick unhealthy people. 

It’s more likely as you get older, but younger people can also develop cancerous cells. 

That’s why you should go for regular mammograms and check your breasts regularly, if you’re a woman. 

It’s also important to say here, that men can be at risk of developing cancerous cells in the chest.

If you’re worried about your likelihood of getting cancer, talk to your doctor, who can arrange further tests.

Don’t put it off, it could save your life.

My story starts here…

It began when I found a lump in my chest and went for tests. 

I was diagnosed with breast cancer and have started treatment. 

After my initial shock of finding out, a range of emotions went through my mind. 

Also questions…

What are my chances for the future?

Will I survive this?…Probably the most difficult thing to contemplate. 

If I complete all the suggested treatment my doctors recommend, I would have a 85% chance of the cancer not returning. 

Apparently, it’s never 100%, there’s always a chance it could come back.

Most importantly for me was the following question…

How will I get through all the treatments with fibromyalgia?

The answer to this question, I’ve spent a very long time thinking about…In short there is no easy answer. 

My personal opinion is; chemotherapy is brutal on the body and a body that fights every day to survive with fibromyalgia is going to be really stressed with chemotherapy.

What can I say to my friends and family?

How do I put into words my diagnosis?

It’s been hard to explain to others what’s happening.

Other people’s reactions can be difficult to predict when you tell them the news.  Most are really understanding and helpful. 

But I’ve found some to be well meaning and a bit thoughtless.


‘You’re be OK, Lea and Viv had it much worse than you and they both survived.’

I reply,

‘Yes, thanks for that.’

In my head I think…

‘But they didn’t have fibromyalgia or any other chronic illness already. How do you know it was worse for them? Anyway; you’ve not had cancer.’

My best course of action I think is to turn it into a positive in some way with…

‘Great! I’ll have a new subject for my posts.’

In practice, it’s not that easy. Most things in life give you some degree of control but with cancer it’s very different.

So, as my treatment progresses my posts in the weeks ahead could get more sporadic. I’ll post as and when I’m able.

I wish all those battling cancer at the moment, strength and courage. With coronavirus our fight is twice as difficult; please stay safe and think of us when you’re social distancing.

If you’ve been affected by my news take a look at the Breast Cancer Now website for more information.

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